I Will Never, Ever Give Up

Some days are hard. The stress of life, jobs, relationships, pain, and an uncertain future can be enough to make me want to curl up in a ball and cry. These feelings are real. The issues in life are real. My pain is real. 

Sometimes I'm in a bad place that I can't talk myself out of, where I can't find it in myself to be positive. These moments don't usually last longer than a day. I don't know exactly what it is that snaps me out of it... a good night's rest, my pain getting under control, the dopamine in my brain resetting, the hope of a new day, God's grace and His amazing and perfect timing. 

You see, I'm not a quitter. My parent didn't raise me that way. I saw them work through tough times whether they wanted to or not. I saw them stand up and fight for what they needed and for what was right. So I will not give up. I've had to endure things that I did not choose for my life. But I am not defined by it. And I have the strength and hope to keep going. To not give up and to keep fighting for the joy in my life. 

I will never, ever give up. 

My Heart is Exploding

Do you ever feel like your heart might explode?

-a wise husband and consequently security with savings at uncertain times
-a niece replying 'I love you more' when I told her I love her
-a full time job
-the opportunity to love others through my job
-health insurance
-warm drinks providing me comfort
-quiet tea parties in bed with nieces
-'safe places': online migraine community, friends who listen and don't judge
-love from furry pups
-a husband who makes me laugh, a lot